Bargain

I have the right to bargain, but I do not have the power to do so, not to mention I am too weak to negotiate.

The fact is that I have withdrawn myself from what was deemed to be an exceptionally descent offer. And I have now been putting up so much concerns on what I reckoned as complicated conditions of new employment contract: valuing this clause whether is fair, measuring that clause whether is reasonable, on the basis of my hypothetical yet close-to-the-reality circumstances. I could hear that HR lady giggled over the other end of the phone when I asked questions for her finest clarifications.

Do not compare. There's nothing that You have got to bargain. I was repeatedly reminded. And then, I remembered the motive that drove me to leave on last Friday, the reason that I turned down what I had, the intention that would result where I wanted to be.

And now I have another door open, all of the sudden. I said: decision is made, I do not want another option, it'll be hard to decide again.